Archive for September, 2012

Realization of a Dream

She could feel the steady rhythm of her heartbeat, the wind that was the breath in her lungs, the touch of sunlight on her freckled nose as she sat cross legged in the sand, bare toes wiggling.

It had been too long since she’d enjoyed the simple pleasure of existing in her own battered body.

Of course, she was supposed to be in meditation or prayer; her Ordination loomed ahead of her, and she felt a sudden trepidation, a shyness that wasn’t like her- not these days. Sir Ballamore had given his blessing, which meant more than she could have expressed- and Sir McAllister had often told her he wanted to see the deed done. Sir Dominus had no doubts of her readiness. She had proven her worth, her courage, and her valor time and again, though it felt like boasting to believe it; privately, she was well aware that she still had hurdles to overcome. She wasn’t perfect.

But she didn’t have to be perfect; only had to keep striving for it, had to uphold the three virtues, to swear the oaths and believe in them, mean them, and continue to mean them for all of her days.

It might have been daunting, had it not been what she’d dedicated herself to for as long as she could remember.

Out of her armor, in the shade-dappled sunlight beneath the bent willow tree that marked Tara and Soren’s headstones, Dyna shivered briefly with the enormity of what lay ahead. Grixxis had said that an Ordination changed a person, made them stronger in the Light- made them new, somehow.

Something about the simplicity of the moment- the sunlight, her bare shoulders and thin cloth pants, knobbly knees bent, grizzled hands bared to the world and left loose over her legs- she did feel new, somehow. Young, perhaps. Almost as young as I am, she mused before letting out an unexpected laugh. The sound startled her, the echo of it ringing over the river. Familiar tension lanced from the pit of her belly up her spine, tingling at the nape of her neck. She felt stripped bare, armorless- shadows closing all around, remembered enemies gathering as her muscles grew rigid. The breath was caught in her lungs. Her skin tingled.

There was nothing. Her breathing slowed to near silence as she strained to hear over the unsteady patter of her pulse, the steady babble of the river ebbing along the island’s banks. Still no shadow-warriors appeared, no fel stone golems, no walking corpses or animated memories- no faces from the past, come to bear arms against her. It was only her.

So perhaps she was not new, after all.

Shaking her head, the woman scooted  toward the river’s edge, the motion careful so as not to unduly jostle the old aching scars along her torso- how many times ought she to have died, now? She was lucky. I am durable. I have lived through many things that ought kill a woman, and yet I remain- a collection of scars, a persistent tally. Whatever comes, it may mark me, may brand me- but I will remain.

As she dipped a foot in the river, sucking in a sharp breath at the chill of the water against her skin, a grin tugged at the side of her face still capable of grinning. I have lived through injury, betrayal, heartbreak. I have tallied the deaths of those I held dear to me. An Ordination cannot possibly be so frightening as facing my own mortality, as opening my heart, or charging down a wave of enemies who might smite me with fel magics in an instant.

I have lived through many things, and I will live through this as well. Today, I will not fear the realization of a dream.

Her grin ebbed a bit, head bowing as she carefully washed her hands, her face. I will become more than I am now, and will remember what I learned before. There is work to be done.


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REPORT: Killed a Nerubian, recovered Tremaine and Antinua((OOC reference- ‘Scruffy Man’ is Martin Tantrill, ‘Prissy Pallerdin Lady’ is Kaide, and ‘Antiwotsit’ and all variations thereof is Antinua. ‘Vice’ is Vyysce.))


Organized by Caleigh North, led by NO FUCKING ONE, participants: Fair, Vice, Ashtivar Whiteoak, some scruffy man, some prissy pallerdin, Caleigh just sort o left us to do it ourselves since we’re so good at shit and shit.

Injuries sustained- Scruffy man broke his leg, Anti-whatsit got stabbed, everyone generally bruised and bumped but no one died this time so that’s nice.

Summoned to SI:7 again, this time by Miss North. She wanted us to go up north again, see what we could make of Anti-whatsit and some other woman who got taken so okay. Vice and I led the way to the pit, then erryone jumped down and I took on the cat’s shape to sniff about, caught wind of two humanoids wot weren’t us so we trekked into this dank ol cave thang an then there wos a corpse oerhead so the prissy pallerdin hit it with a shield an it was all webbed and shit.

Inside wos bones from a blood elf, thought fer a minute it was probably Tremaine but it wasn’t. Then suddenly a web dropped down and I took the Bear’s shape and wos too fat fer it to pull up proper-like, specially since Vice grabbed my legs and was hanging on and then someone fockin set the web on fire so the Nerubian let go and I fell and rolled us into the water and then Vice and I wos webbed together. So the Vice threw me at the focker and the web broke and I missed the Nerubian and hit the scruffy man instead, pretty sure that’s when his leg broke.

Prissy paladin lady hit him with Light-shit, Scruffy hit him with bullets, Fair tried to put holes in him with arrows, Vice threw things like the paladin lady, and I took the Cat’s shape again. We beat the fucker good, though we sustained some injuries ourselves, and then chucked him in the water and he drowned.

There were web stuffs along his body so we dragged it ashore and started opening em up and a horde of wee spiders came and tried to ett me. I drowned ‘em and Vice tried to help and it just ended up with an ass-ton o spiders in the lake and it was gross.

One of the pouches had a sack of dead seagulls, another had Tremaine who was poisoned. I did m’green magics to purge the toxins from him and there was another focker in there with a hat and he was a ghost or something, ran right through the wall and we ne’er seen him again. There were some more bones and then Scruffy got annoyed and stabbed into the last one and lo, it was Anti-wotsit.

So I did m’mendin’ shit on her an nearly lost her seeing as we wos underground in the middle of a starless night surrounded by undeath everywhere so kiss my arse. Anyway, she lived, errything went black. Was alive when I woke up so I figure everything’s good now.

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REPORT: Lorgus Jett takes down Quinny, probably some other people who don’t really matter; possibly dies

About two, three weeks ago; current date is 9/2

Led by Tremaine, participants Quinny ‘Chuckles’ Avenyve, Vice, Ashtivar Whiteoak

Injuries sustained- Whiteoak was bruised up and prematurely aged, though the effects seem to have been temporary. Tremaine was missing, presumed dead. Quinny fallen in battle; body recovered and mended, still dead. Anti-somethin’ missing, presumed dead.

Permanent damages occurred.

Was summoned to SI:7 by way of note, as I often am when I’m needed. Got there and it was people I didn’t know, excepting Chuckles. This Tremaine fellow showed up and was all, ‘hey your leaders are all gone and shit and the Legion’s going to be in deep shit if you don’t do something’. So we all went to this run down hobo camp out in Redridge and rummaged through a shit-ton of armor and weaponry and such until Tremaine found this stunted wee whelp in the back and then got his dumb arse chased all the way to the town hall by some big dumb protodrake.

Then we went to Northrend with a magic paper and Vice got balloons.

We made our way to this big pit underneath Ice Crown Citadel, where we found two figures- Lorgus Jett and Anti-whatsit, some draenei bint. Turns out Jett wasn’t really a person, he was somethin’ else all along just using some poor bastard named Lorgus Jett’s body to fuck with the twilight cultists for whatever end, make ‘em do shit for him, who fockin’ knows.

Anyway, Tremaine was all saying words and shit, and then Jett did some creepy invisible hand chokey shit to the draenei lady and chucked her down a hole. We all tried to kill Jett, which was more or less a dismal failure as Tremaine got chucked down the hole. He tried to chuck me down a hole too, but I’m a Witch so fuck him I have feathers.

We fought the focker till he turned into a big green rock piece of shit, and he was all ‘wooo lookit me I move real fast’ and really handed our arses to us on a gold plate pretty as you please. We were doin’ alright up until he crouched down with this big ol’ shield of whatever the fuck and started makin’ ‘em blue runes he does, the ones that turn shit to dust. Vice managed to huck a sword into the bubble and it pierced through, even had the focker stabbed a bit. I tried to go over the runes in my bird form and help wedge the sword in deeper but then I got old as fockin bones and I had to stop before I withered and died.

Then Quinny showed up with that stupid lookin’ bronze whelp and started waving it at the runes but that didn’t do shit- including turn to dust. The whelp waddled all derp-like at Vice and then Vice used it as a hat and charged into the runes and didn’t die and started punching Jett’s bubble and then the runes almost had us and we were gonna get old and die real fast-like and then suddenly they was gone and Jett was all impaled and punched and shit and he started glowin and rattlin fit to kersplode

Then he jumped on Quinny and exploded.

It tossed me and Vice back a bit, then Vice got all fretsome and told me to fix Chuckles but Chuckles was dead, really really dead and her body was all charred and black and shit. All that was left of Jett was a glowin green rock, which I still have.

I ain’t a witch that can call back souls, it’s not something I know how to do, but for a soul to be called back the body ought to be ready, so I did the best I could and told Vice he’d have to take us home. Mending in a pit of undeath with no sun, not even stars, no plants nearby- wasn’t easy. She’s still dead, though, for all her body looks like a body.

Vice took us home, I don’t remember at that point seeing as how I was out cold.

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Hold the line

Time had ceased to become something which could be measured, which could be understood. All that remained was the cold and the darkness that smothered her. Just dreams, now, and memories- her mind’s eye was vivid with color and regret. She couldn’t hear her own heartbeat, couldn’t feel her pulse. She couldn’t taste the air in her lungs.

Death wasn’t supposed to be like this.

She had dreamed, had imagined, that death would be a final sigh and then silence. She had thought that she would find the Light, warm and radiant and welcoming- that it would draw her tenderly, and she might glimpse a moment’s time with those she had loved that had fallen before her.

She had believed that she might find peace, at long last.

How different this was, then; a cold, bitter purgatory filled, only her own guilty memories for company, constantly reliving each failure- no wonder there was no joy for Odynae Dawnhammer, at the end of things. Her defeat was more than her own death. It was Tia Lansing, Antinua, Ereleth Tremaine, Jahgan, Samili- all of them would fall, now that her intervention had resulted only in lifelessness. Or worse still- the world would burn. All of it.

Too clearly could she see the blood and flame, the skies painted red and black. She was so cold. The darkness was absolute.

She had only the memories for company, but there was only one that she could not banish, could not hide from.

His face was vivid in her thoughts, smiling that liar’s smile, the grey of his eyes hidden in false cheer. His voice whispered to her in the darkness, sing-songing her betrayals in a tender croon. You weren’t there when we needed you most. You gave up. You let go. You moved on, while I rot in a shallow grave.

It was the truth of his whispers that hurt the most.

In life, he’d been a man who more thoroughly grey than anyone she’d ever met. It was impossible to cast him as either villain or knight; he was both. He was neither. Always, she’d painted him black, she’d painted him white, but it was the grey that eluded her. It was difficult to recall the shape of his features without casting him by turns- He lied to me, he betrayed me. I never saw his true face, and so he played the devil. But he loved me. He protected me, as I protected myself. He was kind. He faced his wicked deeds and rose above them. He taught me to value peace. He taught me love. A saint. By turns, she hated him for his deceptions- cursed him for leaving her, for being abducted, for being killed, for how he was used against her at her own hands- but even more, she hated herself for struggling to recall which Strahm was real and which was the facsimile. He had lied to her. He had turned against her when she needed him most. She had let him be taken. She had turned aside and let Marius kill him. She had brought him back wrong.

In the year, closer to two since she’d left him- given up on me, he whispered- she’d never found the chance to mourn him. It was well at least a year, now, that she’d been sure of his death.

Had she ever known him in the first place? Where did the lies end and the truth begin?

She could recall the weight of his arms about her broad shoulders, of his head beside hers, his body and hers, together in simplicity. There had been truth to that and to the vows they’d spoken aboard the Quel’talan.

It was cruelty that blackened his memories, that turned the collection of sweet moments to ashes in her mouth. He was never saint, nor was he was a devil. He was only ever a man, and she had loved him, for all that it hurt. I’m so sorry. I tried. I couldn’t bring you back.

For the first time, she allowed herself grief. She had no heart to feel broken and battered. She was nothing but memories now, and regret; it would hurt no one for her to mourn.

In the time since she had lost him, Odynae Dawnhammer- once Vindalis- had learned that everyone went away, given time. Sometimes they came back. More frequently, they did not- or if they did, they were changed and wrong.

How, then, could she willingly ask those that remained to her, to join her in harm’s way, to stride towards probable death with a smile? Her own death was inevitable; if only she could stop losing everyone else along the way. She was a soldier. She was a paladin. She was a martyr.

She was a bulwark for the Light and sworn to defend those who could not defend themselves.

But she had no choice, now. It was too late. Her soft heart had doomed them, and it was her fault. She hadn’t been strong enough to stand alone, and had been too weak to watch others fall.

She didn’t regret sacrificing herself- only regretted her failure. She was a shield, and it was her place to hold the line. But now the line would fall, and it was on her shoulders.

No one else would remember those who had been lost. No one else would pray for them, as she had.

No, death was not as peaceful as she had believed.

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